Nothingness is the clear piece of paper from which ideas are
born. It is here that invention is birthed. This is where great pieces of music
find masterful variation that corresponds and evokes emotion in man. It is here
that thought became motion. It is a place of nothingness, the covertness of
being.
In a world filled with more than creation and invention. You
only need to imagine the stillness before God churned words like “let there be
light” before creating Adam, (if we are to borrow from Christian ideals of how
we became). It is this moment before the pendulum starts to swing tempo into a
composer’s thought, before writing melodies that express his emotion at a
moment in time. That split second a clock’s arm glides the distance to the
ringing of your alarm in the morning when you wake up.
This place, we all experience but differ in our
interpretation of it. It is a place that exists with or without the assistance
of our senses. It is a moment of reckoning. This is like the part of the song (often
mumbled) that leads to conviction in our out- of- tune voice on a favourite song.
The part we belt out like our life depended on it. This is because we know the
words and the feeling the lyrics evoke, but are so uncertain of the connection
between us, the melody and the anticipated emotion this time around. Imagine
the point where your flight back tyres make contact with the tarmac on the
runway. It’s where the compass needle comes to rest, affording explores
direction.
Now innovation has led us to travel a lengthy distance
without ever affording this nothingness our consciousness. It is the blur we
ignore fore we know what follows is certainty. It is comfort, it is
familiarity. The trust we bestow on a pilot and only look forward to “ladies
and gentlemen, welcome to Fear-free airport…”
I have also travelled this path, shoulders puffed and broad because
society has reassured me through my predecessors that it shall be that way, it
is supposed to be that way. This moment of nothingness, as existent as it is,
preoccupation (with our past and future) almost often renders it non-existent,
nonetheless. This unfortunately radiates our core out of sync with the present.
We therefore pursue the future with only fragments of a moment we could have enhanced
our experience or our state of being alert.
I have learnt through reflecting on my moments of
nothingness that my best has always been documented and characterised by this
very nothingness. This moment of pondering or “uncertainty” is actually where
our consciousness is supposed to be. It then leads us to a moment of reflection
as our thoughts and memory escape us and we chase if for dear life, as we
strive to make sense of it all.
I have possibly wasted time reflecting on my moments of
nothingness because I feel a level of guilt about my subconscious absence in my
own life. This births regret, it quizzes our choices and leads us to lead lives
of doubt and half-truths.
In reality and from the moment I embraced present-ness in my
life, I was for the first time awake in my moment of falling in love. I made a
silent promise to not give up no matter what was happening to and through me in
that moment of nothingness. I have since embraced it and all it would become or
where it might lead, without much expectation, rather than what the world had
already taught me about it. Because of its advent at my moment of nothingness,
I fell for and in it with an unknown zest that continues to pleasantly haunt.
This is owed to my always being a believer in marrying ideals to explore and
discover ordinary, anew. I have been a sucker for uncertainty, so much that its
certainty has become my sanctuary. Here though, in this moment, I allowed
myself to marry my ideals with beliefs and that of my partner regardless of
their depth. This, because I never expected it, especially the way it crept up
on me. It came when I was basking in my moment of nothingness. In my being free
of plenty a chain that bound me at the time. In my moment of nothingness, I
found consciousness. I seem to have found (or been found by) another “nothingness”,
something I never knew or thought possible. It is also this moment of
nothingness that continues to lead me to explore it relentlessly even when pain
and hardship appears to be its momentary diet. Pain and hardship becomes what
spirituality often refers to as life’s balance.
Nothingness is the beauty of life’s curiosity when it is
totally embraced and where its actuality means everything to you. It is the lessons
that lead you closer to a personal truth and reality. It is the fluffy cloud
upon which you lay your convictions and allow them to be fluid enough to
redefine you along with your journey. Change is inevitable, they say. If that
is the case, why not make it a way of life?
This attitude, philosophy and approach to life can be adapted to any dream, desire or goal. You only need to lose yourself in the possibility or desire and detach yourself from the outcome. In “The Seven Spiritual Laws Of Success”, Deepak Chopra will help you better understand the “Law Of Detachment”. It’s a great resource and guide to better understand my passion for nothingness and possibly help you find yours. Escape not but embrace your moment of nothingness.
